i have been feeling lately how completely blessed i am to be able to spend my days with the people i love and adore - all day, every day. they make me so happy. i get to hang out with just these two cute little people all morning, until brock (another one of my very most favorite of all people) wakes up, sometime before lunch (he works on tokyo time, and so far into our night), and makes us a foursome.
it's a treat to spend time with him during the day, instead of the more traditional evenings after work, when we are both worn out from long days.
eventually school gets out and we are joined by three more fun people, when their busy social schedules allow.
i am the luckiest,and i truly feel it. because of infertility, i got to experience two years of free time while my two oldest were at school,and number three hadn't arrived yet. all of my friends with small kids at home were jealous and repeatedly told me how lucky i was to have all my kids in school. well, guess what? although i spent my days doing all of my favorite things - the things i had felt frustrated about not doing as much as i wanted when my kids were tiny: scrapbooking, quilting, crafting, reading, exercising, going to the temple, meeting brock for lunch, serving others, getting together with friends, shopping, keeping my home clean and organized, studying japanese and other subjects i love, etc.......i missed my kids and i felt incomplete. i discovered that nothing is as fulfilling for me as hands-on raising my kids, in person. what could be better than spending my days surrounded by people who make my heart happy?
Maybe other people that have all the kids gone during the day would not have that incomplete feeling. Your spirit was just telling you that something was wrong because you were suppose to have more children (God's love). Maybe I am wrong. I just like to make up stories of why things are the way you are. I am glad you can have that fulfilling feeling once again.
Posted by: gina russon | February 12, 2008 at 09:07 AM
perfect
Posted by: glor | February 14, 2008 at 03:04 PM
I loved what you said. It's a good reminder for me. Just what I needed!
Posted by: Mandee | February 18, 2008 at 10:28 PM