the timing of gracie's birth seems quite poignant. when we left for the hospital at about 8:00 am, brock noticed an ambulance at our neighbor's across the street. when we arrived at the hospital, they were preparing for the arrival of that ambulance, but it never arrived, because our neighbor had passed away. he was elderly and had cancer, so it wasn't completely unexpected, but sooner than expected.
also, the date of may 26th seemed important and familiar to me, and i kept coming back to thinking about it. it hit me in the wee hours of the morning when she was a day and a half old. it is the day that my brother-in-law scott passed away from cancer eleven years ago. it was memorial day weekend that year, just like this year.
and finally, gracie was born the day before my parent's mission farewell (which isn't really a farewell anymore, but we don't know what else to call it). the day of their farewell was her due date, and we are grateful she didn't come on that day. the day before was close enough. i'm so grateful that my mom was able to be there to help me through the labor and delivery. and that she didn't feel pressure to be at the hospital instead of giving her talk in church or spending time with the many, many relatives that came to their house after wards. interestingly, my parents had also been assigned to speak in the sacrament meeting at the hospital that morning, and so i could have heard an abridged version of their mission talks, but i was too tired to get our of my hospital bed and go. we also had a family picture scheduled in the afternoon after church. our photographer said that she could add gracie and i in later, which sounded very nice. but after thinking about it, i decided it would be a nice memory to have gracie in the photo when she was actually less than a day old. so i quickly got ready, and showed up for the photo with 23 hour old gracie. she looks great in the photos, but i look like i felt, tired and puffy. with all the family at the house, brock had the idea of taking me & gracie to an inn in town. I was able to get better rest than at the hospital, where they are constantly coming in and waking you up for a test or vital signs, etc. and i will always Cherish the time i was able to spend there with just my gracie. that is where i completely fell in love with her, head over heels.
our family photo, may 27, 2007
my parents left for the mtc yesterday morning, monday the 4th. i was sad to see them go. i have really cherished the time we have been able to spend together for the last month and a half. especially after being in japan for so many years.
and on sunday, the national guard unit from our community was shipped off to iraq, including my sister-in-law's father. that is a difficult beginning and ending for many families here.
so gracies' beginnings came at the time of several endings, which are beginnings also. my parents are beginning an new adventure in their lives, and death is a but a beginning of it's own. it also marked endings in her life, the ending of pregnancy, the ending of her previous existence. i am feeling a little emotional about all the beginnings and endings in our life right now.